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Well once again I have to post with bad news. My Aunt has died. She just stopped breathing in her sleep which was the best because she was just diagnosed with lung cancer. No idea when the funeral is but i already e-mail work and my teachers just in case. Nothing much else has been happening. Right now I'm uploading CD's for my grandpa's collection he had some great stuff. Lots of piano and steel drum because I said I liked it once. Got to hang out with andrea bom. and joe last night that was fun. We had to exlpain dogma to andrea it was quite good. Before that we went and saw some sort of christmas thing at the communtiy center not bad. Still trying to convince Mrs. Fair to live a little and go skiing with us. It would be good for her to get away and josh can learn how to ski. Hey if anyone wants to go our awsome condo can fit 10!!! Well I'm going to go to bed now the dogs are starting to give me dirty looks, they know its passed bed time. Night all!

I've just started my nutrition class and I already hate it. Way to much extra reading and she is having us do like a class chapter review thing where she will post a question then someone answers it and asks another question and so on and so on. Sounds simple right? Not with this class apperently no one knows how to read and I never got a question to answer so I ended up making my own up for all three chapters. Not to mention this lady really doesn't like trees. She has us print like 10 pages a day to keep until the final. Enough about that.
Work is fine. Starting to get use to it. I quit bbv so now I have weekends open for fun yah know...grandma, yard work, cleaning, homework, reports, and other fun things like that.
I just realized I never posted a pic of the new pup. her name is zoey! everyone wanted jovi but my dad wouldn't let us. These are of the car ride home.



She likes to be a neck and lumbar support.

Well, I'm waiting for yet another thing so I'll give a quick update. First I've had it with blockbuster well mostly the drama and such at the store and the drive, so i'm putting in my notice. I felt bad though because almost everyone else is leaving too so for the ones remaining I've given a 30 days notice to give them time to find a few replacement otherwise it will all come down on the people I have really gotten to know and like sooo. Mom has lost it and we are getting  a new puppy. She found it on the computer and its in missouri and of course my dad wants to drive to get it. Oh well i get to see uncle Bernie at least and visit a state i haven't been to before! Parents are going to Vegas for their 25th Ann. They deserve it! Ski trip is still a maybe although now it might be maine instead and may be the last family ski trip well at least for a while. Hey rach drop me a line sometime new details about that. That's all i can think of right now. Keep in touch yah all.

It's it just my luck to recieve a notice fromt eh college today (being yesterday now) that one of my classes has been cancelled the day before it starts. Now I dont' have enough credit hours for my parents insurance nor to try again for the nursing program. Every class that is left has nothign to do with my field of study and you have to have a preq. to get into them! 
Thanks alot macomb.

So had a long entry but computer erased. So  heres the sort version:

I'm depressed
Second job like it
Baba's not doing good
Want to cry
Going no where in life
Dogma's on feel better now : Who's house runs house, Who's house runs house. And Chris Rock falls out of the sky! "If you don't calm down I'm gonna knock you yak off like a paper towl!"
Might be able to go to Vermont for ski trip: cross your fingers

I just  want to know one thing. Why is it that everytime the wings play the are not only playing against the other team but they are playing against the refs too? Yes, the last call was the right one but what about the fifty before that were called or not called. I esp. love the OT 2 against goal interference against samulson when he was no where near the goal, to top that he was even in camera view!!! Why can't the just let them play? Oh, wait that wouldn't be good tv. BITE ME!!!

I  just wanted to thank everyone for their kind words and support through everything with my grandfather. Thank you for the calls when you found out and thank you to those who took the time to come to the funeral. It means more to me then you will ever know. I love you all. I don't think I say that enough. Please take the time to say that to all the ones you love.

I love you all and wish good health to you and yours.  

 Well for those of you who didn't know my grandfather has passed away. At least his pain has stopped. Now begins the jounrey with Ba Ba. 
Oh and an update on my online class. Teacher won't let me make up the quiz's I missed so now I have to drop the class.

 So, I'm all packed...wide away even though I just fell asleep about three hours ago and I've finish all my homework for the next two weeks. So I should be good to go right???? Wrong!!! For some reason my online class wouldn't let me take any of my quizes!!! So now what I'm I suppost to do. I e-mail my instructor but so far nothing. Why does everything in my life have to be so difficult? Oh by the way papap is back in the hospital.. wasn't doing to good. Long story there but he is doing better now!!! AHHH!!!! 7 1/2 hours til my plane leaves!!!!

Remember what I said about being summons for jury duty...well i got a response to my request for postponement. DENIED!!! Due to lack of documentation. WTF I sent them everything I had..my clas schedule, travel itinerary, hotel reservation flight confirmation. What else do they want. I even said I would be happy to do it the week before or after my trip just not at that time. I just want to cry right now. We've been planning this for a year and it took me all that time to come up with the money which might i add is non-refundable. What the fuck I'm I suppost to do now.

It's January. I'm sitting in shorts and a t-shirt with all the windows in the house open. Nope global warming is totally not a problem.....just wanted to share.

Yup I got summoned for jury duty. Which really I wouldn't care that much because I would most likely make more then I do at work. BUT!!!! It's exactly when I'm suppost to be on my CRUISE!!!! WTF!!! Hopefully I can get out of it but with my luck.... 

 Just took my last Final !(it was an online class) so I can have a life again for about three weeks. I want to see everyone!!! This week I work:
mon 3-10 
thurs 3-10 am (inventory such fun..not)
           5-cl (yes I have to go back to work 7 hours later)
fri 2-10 
sun 2-9

ok so maybe I really don't get my life back but i do get to sleep again!

Gonna make this quick because I'm about to fall asleep and I can sleep because my dad is up north. Yeah dad gets a vacation and I get to sleep again!!!! Anyways this week started off really bad. Didn't do to hot on my ITCS test but I'm still holding a solid A. My window got stuck and won't go up and it was raining so now I have to fork out money for that but have to wait til monday because the place its a holiday. Everyday at work every person who had a problem or was crumpy came to me and yelled at me. On Thanks giving day my truck broke down at a gas station on my way to eat dinner with the family. Turns out I need a new battery because the connector in the one I had was breaking off and finally did. And to top the cake our washer and dryer quit! So this morning changed everything. First had a great time being awake at a wacky time in the morning and shopping with Rach, Nick and for a while Adam. Then meeting and getting to finally see Marky and Katie again. Oh yeah and mom # 3or 4 I can't remember the order. Came home, got dad's truck and even though there was a line out the door, walked in and got my stuff and walked back out i like 15 mins. I am good!!! Got home and did more shopping with mom and dad for new battery and washer and dyer. Mom "suggested" to me that I need a break from work and my truck was the perfect reason so I called in to work in which I feel bad about but I think I would have had a break down if I would have. So better of me and the people of blockbuster. Got all the stuffand now my truck works again . We had to use my truck to get the new washer and dyer in which I might add that it's the exact one that my mom has been wanting. Top of the line of course, what else would my dad get. So I'm happy for her. Anyways, it was really weird sitting in the back seat again with my whole family. We haven't done that in i don't know years maybe. Oh and also I got to see brother. (Cam) Which is always fun. Okay time to crash
Night all!!

Well I just got home from my work bowling party. It was great. Weird seeing everyone out of uniform but fun. We all had a really great time trying to at least get over 100. Yes we suck that much. It was also great that we got to talk outside of work because my boss has been a real bitch lately and we are all sick of it. She is really picking on one girl name Toni and it's just really unfair. It's sad my boss actually tries to start drama and fighter. I take that back it's pathetic. She is incredibly racist to, I've never seen anybody this bad usually I can just ignore it but she's out of control. Well I guess my point is that we all got allot of our chests and had a group therapy session. 
School has been okay. My class on Wednesday was canceled because the whole school lost power so that kind of suck because there are only two classes left. So far on course for the 4.0 I need. So that's why you guys haven't heard or seen from me in forever. I still can't believe how much I love sign language and for some reason I get it the first time around. It's weird normally I have to study and practice my life away for a language class but this one it's almost easy.
Family is doing okay. Mom has really been sticking to her weight watcher's diet and I'm proud to say she has lost 25 lb's already. Lots of walks with izzy. It's really fun and now izzy doesn't bug me all night she just lays at my feet like she's doing right now keeping my feet warm. Papa is doing okay I guess doctors really haven't said anything still. His chemo is done now and they are going to try and remove more of the colon soon. My lip has healed really nicely for my surgery. Can't really tell anymore. Dad is still working insane hours but he's likes his new job and he loves coming home to see that we have food and the bills are still being paid. Bernie is still Bernie but I really think he is starting to get better. We don't fight as much anymore but then again we never really see each other either. 
I just realized I never wrote in here about my vacation well I guess now its vacations. First we are once again going skiing in Jan. 2-4 crystal mt. again. Then a month later I will be going on my first ever cruise!!!! I can't wait I get to leave the U.S. and get a stamp in my passport. 
Well that's all for now. Got to get to bed. Have to take munchkin for a walk to the park to play in the morning and work a mid after that with my boss. In the words of Martel "oh joy". If anyone wants to get together my next day off is Sunday. I have a bunch of movies this week, Reign over me, 28 weeks later, planet terror, and Evan almighty.

 

 

So I'm sitting here typing out my notes and listen to DEAD ZONE on may TV. All of a sudden I'm hearing the same lines over again. I turn around and the same scenes are playing over again. Then all of a sudden in mid sentence they network cuts to a commerical. so are they going to cut the end of the show or something because now i have no idea whats going on.

Donnie Darko is one of the best cult classics ever!!! Not for those of the weak minded.

Okay so now that I'm out of my what ever state I was in and we know what for sure is going on here it is:

My grandpa on my dad's side had stage 4 lung, liver, and colon cancer. There's really nothing they can do so they are just trying to keep him as comfortable as possible. 

So yeah that's the reason for this mornings weirdness.

Oh yeah and thank you Steph for letting me come over. I just didn't want to go home for some reason.

So you know when you have those days where everything starts out fine and then the shit hits the fan and you feel like your sinking and no ones hand is there to pull you back to the surface. Yeah...that was today. Or should I say yesterday. To quote the doctor "yeah its bad. It's really bad."  When that's what the doctor says to you theres not much hope. I feel so numb right now it's not setting in yet. I just kept telling myself don't let it show because then he'll know. I couldn't bring myself to tell him. I'm mean he's my pap pap. I was just sitting with him last week listen to another war story. I'm glad and honored that he wanted me to stay with him but, then why did I have to be the one to tell my family. This sucks. I'm going to bed. Maybe more tomorrow I'm just to...i don't even know what.